Pile upon pile of shit.
It just keeps coming.
I must not be as smart as I need to be.
Unable to shed myself of the mish mash –
The wedge between me and the others.
Scrawny in my sense of self,
The primitive me seeks to live vicariously.
You may be wont to disagree
But I think the Pâro*
Has got the better of me.
By Sarah 2017©
* Pâro ((n.) the feeling that no matter what you do is always somehow wrong—that any attempt to make your way comfortably through the world will only end up crossing some invisible taboo—as if there’s some obvious way forward that everybody else can see but you, each of them leaning back in their chair and calling out helpfully, colder, colder, colder.)
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